friend

I am not mad.

I am not sad.

I am not upset.

If anything,

I am confused.

I don't know what the truth is,

whether you are mad

glad

relieved

or happy

that you told me what you told me.

However bipolar we all are

it is great within you right now.

I am happy

and congratulatory for you

but you know not

as you do not believe me.

You have shut me out,

put the walls up,

and are ignoring me.

I really do hope you are happy

with Shelby.

You need someone in your life,

a relationship,

and maybe she is the one.

So enjoy your date,

enjoy your life,

enjoy your friends,

and your family.

Hold close to you those

who care about you

and trust you.

But don't let anger get in the way

of those relationships.

Don't assume one is mad

when they are not,

as it does no one any good.

It only causes harm,

a loss of trust,

and the loss of

a possible friendship.

It hurts deeply

to have this type of confusion,

to be told that I would only

make a fool of myself

by trying to figure out the truth.

Pissed one minute,

hahahahahahahahahahahahah the next,

no wonder one would be confused.

I don't know if this friendship

is meant to be.

You cared enough to tell me about the date,

but not enough to eliminate my confusion.

You have shut me out,

and I am saying good bye.

I liked you but now

I don't know.

You have feelings for Shelby

and maybe for me,

but who knows.

I wish you the best there is to offer

in this life,

and may success come your way.

I am confused

and there is only one solution:

adios amigo.

Now I don't know

whether to say goodbye

or stay.