my life right now

my life right now
is worth nothing.
Everything I do, everything I say,
everything I don't do, everything I don't say
my life is shit
watching Speak
I feel like Melinda
alone
useless
a nobody
like firewood
hmm....
someday
maybe someday
I will be with someone
useful
someone
unlike firewood.
what a joy it would be
to be someone in life
not feeling alone
and worthless
but that probably
won't ever ever happen
that is my life.
they say
things happen
for a reason.
I don't believe them.
guarentees,
boggusness.

I am no one.
I will always be no one.
I will never be no one.
Never ever.